but still, can't find the right answers..
How do you end
something that started out wonderfully for you? Too nice, too great that it had
you thinking, what price do I pay?
When do you start asking questions about something you once thought you know best? Would you realize to what extent you knew it well?
What can be the reason why you believe in something that was never within your reach? Are you ready for the odds?
Why must you sacrifice all the love in your own world for something so dense yet so transparent? Why do you even allow yourself to think about it?
Who do you run to when the one you've always been willing to walk a thousand miles for turns his back on you? Rather, would you run after him, or would you find another?
When do you start asking questions about something you once thought you know best? Would you realize to what extent you knew it well?
What can be the reason why you believe in something that was never within your reach? Are you ready for the odds?
Why must you sacrifice all the love in your own world for something so dense yet so transparent? Why do you even allow yourself to think about it?
Who do you run to when the one you've always been willing to walk a thousand miles for turns his back on you? Rather, would you run after him, or would you find another?
My dear, I can honestly say to you that I am one who never had much luck when it comes to "lasting" love and I feel a bit hopeless even now. Aside from that, I am in a way thankful for those who have come and gone. And though it was heartbreaking to let them go, they have in some ways deepened my perception and opened my eyes to things I never saw before. My last relationship was probably the best I've had but it was long distance, and I've already had this conception in my mind that it will never work. So the constant doubt and lack of faith somewhat contributed our demise. My behavior eventually led him to believe that it was better we go our separate way. To this day, I wish I could take him back to where we began and instead of pushing him away. I would've hang on to him. After all was said and done I've realized that the distance between two people is not the miles that separate them. It's the distance between their hearts. I wish I had realized that before it was too late to get him back.
ReplyDeleteAnyways, my point is no matter how hard, how confusing your situation is, how regretful you are, these hardships are like stepping stones and can make you a better, wiser, and more thoughtful person. Right now your emotional state will not allow you to rationalize. Your heart is taking over your head. Eventually, your heart will give up and grow weary of this one sided love. It can only go for so long. Once your heart is done feeling, your mind will start thinking more clearly.